We made the trip home on Saturday in a monsoon no less. We really needed a raft to get down there it was raining so hard. We ran errands around town when we got there taking care of my Grandmother’s business. And then Hubby dropped me off at to visit my Grandmother (after helping me unload all the geriatrics purchases I had bought last week). I stayed with her for about two hours and believe it or not- it flew by! When I first saw her in her bedroom, she was lounging in her reclining wheelchair with her eyes closed. I spoke and she magically perked up. Her speech was still slurred and her words were very hard to decipher. I pulled a chair right up next to her so I could put my ear next to her mouth. She kept reaching out to touch my face as if she wanted to see if I was really there… and not a dream maybe?? I brought her copies of six bluegrass music CD’s and they put one in the player… she would get this really big smile on her face and start shaking her legs and hands to the beat of the music (all while in the wheelchair) just like she was dancing to the music. She loved it! The music just makes her so happy. They did get her out of the wheelchair at one point and let her show me how she walks around the house- up and down the halls and around her bedroom and into the kitchen and around the island. It is almost as if she does not feel pain at all! Her threshold of pain must be ridiculously high is all I can figure… Then, she had lunch and a bathroom trip… still no complaining of pain in her hip… we listened to more bluegrass- she kept her eyes closed (unknowingly) most of the time while listening- not sure why she keeps her eyes closed so much now (something to talk to her eye doc about I guess)… and before I knew it- Hubby was there to pick me up. We had to go change into our dressy clothes for a family wedding later that afternoon up in LaGrange. I felt bad leaving her… but, she did not seem to be too upset about it this time.
I called her today to chat and could not interpret one single thing she said to me… very disconcerting to say the least. I just kept replying yes and uh-huh to humor her… I just hope I did not agree to too much! I talked to her about the usual (weather, work, Hubby, etc.) and closed with how much I loved her…
I think that my visit on Saturday and today’s chat on the phone really tell a dark picture of the days to come with her… I am saddened more and more as our lines of communication are dwindling. I still feel like she is herself and she knows me but I just cannot understand her words. Very upsetting…
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